From Haskara 2018
I thought Id share a little story with you guys. So I recently moved apartments, something that I needed to do for a long time but was also very difficult for me. During this move, I got into a very stupid "sichsooch" with one of my neighbors over my parking spot. And it really troubled me because these people were good friends and neighbors throughout the years not only to me, but they were especially close with Amir. Well I handled the situation the way I always do and the best way I know how and that is to avoid all confrontation. Basically hiding as much as I could.
Also this year, on erev Yom Kippur, it was the first year that I stayed in the neighborhood on that specific night. After the kids came home from bike riding and went to bed I decided to do what I once always loved to do, and I went out to skateboard. I purposefully went outside the neighborhood so not to run into anyone I know – I wanted to be by myself. As im skating down the highway, who do I see? Of course I go straight past the couple im fighting with over the parking spot.
They saw me, I saw them - there was no where to hide. I stopped and instinctively said hi and hugged them as I always did in the past. They asked how it was in the new apartment and were nice. We talked a bit about our disagreement and decided to agree to disagree and left it at that.
As I skated away, relieved and much happier than I was before, I thought to myself how strange that I dafka run into them of all the people I know in the neighborhood and nobody else. Of course I believed that Amir had something to do with it – wanting to get me and his friends on good terms, especially on erev yom kippur.
And then another thought came to me that really made me smile.
I thought of how Amir always seems to be navigating me in my life – yes I believe that it is true. Doesn’t matter if I want to believe it or not – I just believe it is true, there are just too many incidents that sum up to more than coincidence and more than luck for me and the kids in the last couple of years. And then I wondered – well HOW is he able to do that? Aren't there rules up there not to interfere with people's lives? I don’t hear of other people experiencing these kinds of things so much and so often.
And then I remembered - Amir always got special privileges. Wherever he went, he became involved and took charge of things and led projects and this is why he was always given these special allowances to do things other people weren't. Like in the gan when all the parents had to be out by 8:30 amir was always allowed to linger because the gananot loved him so much. And that's my explanation – Amir is probably in charge of things somewhere in this universe and he has either made the right connections with the right people, or managing something, or did someone a favor and that is how he can reach me. And so, I feel that I have a connection with him – when I need him he is simply there, the way he always was in life. And in return, he is forever in my heart.
Pics from Gan Amir, the lookout point 2018
